Brummet's Conscious Blog

Oh, The Stress Of It All Well - we found a buyer for our home and had less than 5 weeks to both find a suitable home and move into it. Once we signed that contract it was weeks of sleepless nights, restless tummy, fretful mind, sweaty palms and frazzled hair. Was I stressed? ...You bet I was !!!  Many of you already know that I suffer from an anxiety disorder; stress affects me physically causing rashes and vomiting, and I easily fall into depression. With moving being one of the most stressful things a person can go through, I knew I would have to use more than a few tranquilizers to get through the storm to come.  By using calming, meditative music and occasionally some blues or 70's music during the day I was able to greatly reduce the stress I was feeling, and the dogs love to nap to music. To quiet the mind at night I've begun listening to short audio books via YouTube - these are especially helpful on those sleepless nights.  Long showers helped ease the physical ac...

 -- Loss --  It has been along sad journey for us in the repeated loss of parents. My biological dad passed away when I was about 18 or 19, if memory serves correctly. And Dave's mom passed away when I was 32-33. But this loss did not prepare me for the devastating loss of my mom and her husband when I was 40. These deaths all hit hard, in different ways - so much that the pain haunted me when we discovered dave's dad (the last parent) was going to die. I knew the pain was coming, the grief, the exhaustion, the legalities and meetings and official circles that come with being in the executor realm, again. With each parent, Dave and I were the closest kin (location wise) and so we did a lot of support activities for each parent and their individual needs. With small bouts of peace between the illness and death, we somehow kept our sanity. Then this one hit. Well it hit hard. We were already at the end of our reserves and now, after his passing, the crazy haze of busynes...